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[11 Aug 2008|03:54pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

TEN things you would like to say to TEN different people:
1. It will all be okay.
2. I want things to work out but you are making it so difficult!
3. You are the only thing keeping me going, you always make me feel better.
4. Sometimes I wish I could understand you better, and know what's really going on with you. Because you scare me a lot sometimes.
5. You need to get your shit together.
6. All in all I think it's a win win situation.
7. Ughh I fuckin hate you!
8. I can't decide whether or not I like you. I think I do for the most part.
9. Where have you beeeeeen?
10. You better not fuck it up this time.

NINE things about yourself:
1. I'm terrible at math and science, but I want to be a Veterinarian.
2. I'm really loud, and have an obnoxious laugh.
3. I love having really deep conversations, especially about conspiracy theories.
4. SUVs and polluters piss me off.
5. I think I have a slight form of OCD.
6. Once I get an idea my head, I can't stop thinking about it.
7. I've been a vegitarian for a little over a month now. But I really miss meat eating.
8. I make up elaborate stories in my head.
9. Someday I want to work for the ASPCA to medically rescue animals.

EIGHT ways to win your heart:
1. Have a good sense of humor.
2. Be intelligent.
3. Don't be superficial.
4. Be affectionate to animals and other people.
5. Get along with my family.
6. Play with my hair.
7. Be interesting.
8. Be fun.

SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot:
1. Chocolate.
2. Insecurities.
3. OMG! Cute dog!
4. OMG! I want a dog!
5. My career.
6. Dorian Coven.
7. Different songs.

SIX things you're doing this week:
1. Going to the Cheesecake Factory! In an hour! YUmms!
2. Hopefully seeing houses for rent with Amanda and Jenna.
3. Going to Rob's Roaring 20's partay.
4. Partying it up at my house.
5. Working a lot.
6. Looking for a second job.

FIVE turn offs:
1. Too serious or depressing.
2. People who are superficial/stuck up.
3. Bad hygiene.
4. Bad style.
5. If you smoke or drink way to much.

FOUR turn-ons:
1. Nice eyes.
2. Nice hair, preferabally long.
3. Nice smile.
4. Can make me laugh.

THREE moods you're feeling and why:
1. Irritated from fighting about stupid shit and being treated like shit.
2. Nervous about what will happen in the future.
3. Excited about living on my own with my two best friends.

TWO things you want to do before you die:
1. See Europe.
2. Be successful [with my career, having a family]

ONE person who completes your world:
1. It's a tie, Jenna and Dorian.

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Venting, and stole quiz thing from Amanda. [07 Aug 2008|10:09pm]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

Hmmm I think wayyy to much most of the time. It drives me crazy. I have so much on my mind. School, work, moving. Maybe I won't get into it.

__ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __

1. When do you feel you’re best?
a) In the morning
b) During the afternoon and early evening
c) Late at night

2. You usually walk...
a) fairly fast, with long steps
b) fairly fast, with little steps
c) less fast, head up, looking the world in the face
d) less fast, head down
e) very slowly

3. When talking to people, you...
a) stand with your arms folded
b) have your hands clasped
c) have one or both your hands on your hips
d) touch or push the person to whom you are talking
e) play with your ear, touch your chin, or smooth your hair

4. When relaxing, you sit with...
a) your knees bent with your legs neatly side by side
b) your legs crossed
c) your legs stretched out or straight
d) one leg curled under you

5. When something really amuses you, you react with...
a) a big appreciative laugh
b) a laugh, but not a loud one
c) a quiet chuckle
d) a sheepish smile

6. When you go to a party or social gathering you...
a) make a loud entrance so everyone notices you
b) make a quiet entrance, looking around for someone you know
c) make the quietest entrance, trying to stay unnoticed

7. You're working very hard, concentrating hard, and you're interrupted. You…
a) welcome the break
b) feel extremely irritated
c) vary between these two extremes

8. Which of the following colors do you like most?
a) red or orange
b) black
c) yellow or light blue
d) green
e) dark blue or purple
f) white
g) brown or gray

9. When you are in bed at night, in those last few moments before going to sleep you are…
a) stretched out on your back
b) stretched out face down on your stomach
c) on your side, slightly curled
d) with your head on one arm
e) with your head under the covers

10. You often dream that you are...
a) falling
b) fighting or struggling
c) searching for something or somebody
d) flying or floating
e) you usually have dreamless sleep
f) your dreams are always pleasant

1. (a) 2 (b) 4 (c) 6
2. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 7 (d) 2 (e) 1
3. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 5 (d) 7 (e) 6
4. (a) 4 (b) 6 (c) 2 (d) 1
5. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 2
6. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 2
7. (a) 6 (b) 2 (c) 4
8. (a) 6 (b) 7 (c) 5 (d) 4 (e) 3 (f) 2 (g) 1
9. (a) 7 (b) 6 (c) 4 (d) 2 (e) 1
10. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 6 (f) 1

My Score is... 39

OVER 60 POINTS: Others see you as someone they should "handle with care." You're seen as vain, self-centered, and someone who is extremely dominant. Others may admire you, wishing they could be more like you, but don't always trust you, hesitating to become too deeply involved with you.

51 TO 60 POINTS: Others see you as an exciting, highly volatile, rather impulsive personality; a natural leader, who's quick to make decisions, though not always the right ones. They see you as bold and adventurous; someone who will try anything once and someone who takes chances. They enjoy being in your company because of the excitement you radiate.

41 TO 50 POINTS: Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.

31 TO 40 POINTS: Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful, and practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest. Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expects the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust in your friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over if that trust is ever broken.

21 TO 30 POINTS: Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It would really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment, expecting you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then, usually, decide against it. They think this reaction is caused partly by your careful nature.

UNDER 21 POINTS: People think you are shy, nervous, and indecisive, someone who needs looking after, who always wants someone else to make the decisions & who doesn't want to get involved with anyone or anything! They see you as a worrier who always sees problems that don't exist. Some people think you're boring. Only those who know you well know that you aren't.

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=/ [15 Jul 2008|01:01am]
[ mood | sore ]

Okay so...

Dorian gave me a Dwarf Hamster for Christmas. Because his brilliant reason was, "You can't have your own dog, so here's a rodent. Merry Christmas!" Well, the little bastard kept me up every night for about four months running on his wheel. It drove me crazy, up until recently. I bought him a silent wheel. It's wonderful, and now I can get glorious sleepies. But honestly, the tiny rodent grew on me, he's sweet when he's not biting you. The only thing is, I really really don't agree with caged animals. Unfortunately, Dorian didn't know that when he bought him for me. Commander Cuddles (as Dorian named him) is slowly going crazy. Last night I came home and realized that he looked really skinny and sickly. So I took away his little observation tower because he just sits up there all day and lays in his crap and pee. It can't be healthy. So yeah, ever since I took that away he's been like, running in circles in his cage. It's just really depressing and sad.

Sorry I wrote an entry about my little hamster, but I just got home and saw him and got sad, so I needed to vent.

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[22 Jun 2008|07:09pm]
[ mood | bitchy ]

I really just hate everything right now.

;ksajgoaiewjf;lakfg fuck it.

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hmm [05 May 2008|10:43am]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

I'm worried. And anxious.

I hate waiting for my grades.

It sucks.

The next year of my life depends on my grades. And I cannot wait any longer for the results!!!

This weekend was awesome. I got a lot of things accomplished. Every weekend has been awesome now that i have the weekends off!!! Ughh I love my new job. It's so nice not having to work all weekend and spending 24 hours a day with dee.

Okay I must go and get ready.

Much love<3

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Hmm.... [06 Apr 2008|04:49pm]
[ mood | blah ]

I'm so worried. About everything. I probably won't be able to work with animals, which fucking sucks so much. I'm worried about going to London next semester, which might not even happen (another thing I'm worried about. I have so much to do and so much on my mind and it seems like no matter what anyone says it doesn't make anything better.

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so good, had to post. [01 Apr 2008|09:14pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

Ooh, and all I taught her was everything
Ooh, I know she gave me all that she wore
And now my bitter hands chafe beneath the clouds
Of what was everything.
Oh, the pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything...

I take a walk outside
I'm surrounded by some kids at play
I can feel their laughter, so why do I sear?
Oh, and twisted thoughts that spin round my head
I'm spinning, oh, I'm spinning
How quick the sun can drop away

And now my bitter hands cradle broken glass
Of what was everything?
All the pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything...

All the love gone bad turned my world to black
Tattooed all I see, all that I am, all I'll be...

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Idea I stole from amanda. [11 Feb 2008|05:50pm]
[ mood | cold ]

100 facts/secrets:

1. My name is Breanna Elizabeth Delaney.
2. I go to C.W. Post, and can't make up my mind whether I like it or not.
3. I am the vice president of the environmental club at my school.
4. I love it.
5. Someday I would like to open up my own grooming/training/boarding pet facility.
6. I work at an animal shelter.
7. My least favorite dog breeds are Pomeranians and Chihuahuas. I love large dogs!
8. I tend to get stressed out and angry very easily...
9. I associate all bands/songs/CDs with a certain season.
10. Saves the Day = summer
11. Smashing Pumpkins = Spring/summer
12. Coheed and Cambria = winter
13. AFI = fall
14. Alexisonfire = winter
15. As I lay dying = winter
16. Death cab = winter
17. Brand New = summer
18. The Early November = fall
19. Iron and Wine = fall
20. I try not to listen to a band out of its season.
21. I wrote close to 25 stories until I reached 13. I never finished any of them.
22. My favorite dog breeds are: Australian Shepherd, Boarder Collie, Pit Bull, Rotties.
23. I have tried to be a vegitarian three times now, failing horribly each time.
24. I love eating meat =( But I wish I didn't
25. My obsession is anything sweet. Ice cream, chocolate, cake.
26. I have a really hard time getting over the past.
27. I have a hard time moving on.
28. I hold grudges.
29. I really only have two true friends.
30. One of them is my sister Jenna.
31. Other than that I really don't trust anyone.
32. I have seen Rent almost seven times.
33. I have seen Coheed six times.
34. They are my favorites <3
35. I HATE the American way.
36. I hate soccer moms.
37. SUVS
38. I get really irritated if I see people litter.
39. I love yoga, I got out of it for a while but now I'm taking classes again.
40. When I'm high, I judge people a lot. Sometimes I find myself thinking the worst things.
41. I also judge myself when I'm high.
42. People tend to tell me their life stories when they meet me. But I DON't CARE!
43. I'm broke.
44. I used to get wasted all the time, but now I hardley ever drink/smoke. I like it better that way.
45. I don't know how I'm 19 all ready.
46. I'm afraid of the future.
47. I'm very lazy.
48. Dorian Coven is my favorite person. I love him with all my heart. He's my best friend and my love <3
49. I'm broke.
50. i HATE credit cards!

Okay I decided to stop at 50 for now. To be continued.

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when you ask, is something wrong? I think youre damn right there is, but we can't talk about it now [30 Jan 2008|05:24pm]
[ mood | excited ]

(warning: this entry is going to be long and uninteresting to most)

Wow, life has been so crazy lately. Whether it's school, work or social gatherings...I'm always doing something. It seems like I don't have any time to just chill out anymore. I can't decide if it's a bad thing though.

The most important thing in my life right now is school, but I really am more interested in concentrating on becoming better with animals. If I want to open a business involving animals, I have to train and work with them. I am afraid to handle certain dogs at the shelter still, and in a way I feel like maybe that's a good implication that I will never be good with training. I want/need to get over my fears. I really want to get a job at a dog training/day care/grooming place where I can really learn how to do all of those things. I feel like I'm wasting my time at the Shelter. Although I truly and completely love the feeling of helping the shelter dogs, I need to learn how to groom and train and run that type of business.

The shelter has been driving me crazy. Everyone is quitting because of the management (and the fact that we are under payed). I'm thinking maybe I should as well, although I'd hate to leave the dogs. I've really grown to love them. Pearl, Clive, Mario, Darius, Huckabee. What would I do without them? If i did quit, I would still need to volunteer.

I've been thinking a lot about the relationships in my life. So I thought I'd make a mini anonymous posting to certain people. Here it goes:

1. You remind me a lot of myself. I hope you come out of this stage soon though, I miss the old you a lot.
2. I never really get to know the real you. You always surprise me. What I'm most afraid of is you fucking me over like everyone else did.
3. If you fuck her over I'll kill you.
4. I'm forever in debt to you. I love you so much, I'm so grateful with everything you do for me. I think about you all the time, and I feel so bad for everything you have to put up with. I wish I could help you in some way.
5. I can't understand you sometimes. You claim you're broke then go off and buy useless shit. Lately you are acting so different. But I can't blame you, we've all been stressed out.
6. I can't get over things, no matter how hard I try. I know I should though, I want to. It's just I will look at something, or hear something that just brings me back to it. It makes me so upset. Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever get over these things. I wish I can do to you what you did to me, but I could never be so cruel.
7. There's no one I can relate to more than you. You are my best friend and always will be, no matter what.

Okay that's all for now.


PS- my b-day is tomorrow! yippy! tomorrow/friday is going to be the most fun i've had all week!

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thinking.... [08 Jan 2008|11:10pm]
[ mood | sore ]

So last night got me to think...

mostly about how much I've changed without realizing it. but also how much some people haven't changed... at all.

It's just really sad that the people that I used to know and be so close with are never going to change their ways. Part of me is so happy to know that I will never have to deal with that ever again. It's just such a breath of fresh air to actually be able to do what I want to do and be who I want without being judged.

It made me think about how people do it, every day. I can't think about how tiring that would become.

Anyway, I love Mario, and I wish I could adopt him. I would take him, Kobee, and Clive if I could. And Pearl if she liked other dogs. I really love working at the shelter so much.

Okay soo yeah, time to clean my room cuz it's a mess!

oh and...

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[28 Dec 2007|02:25pm]
[ mood | distressed ]

I'm so confused.

I don't know what to do.

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taking amandas lj ideas [01 Dec 2007|06:18pm]
[ mood | cold ]

1. I guess you really are the way everyone thought you were. You need to start growing up now, you have people depending on you and you're out partying. Get over yourself.
2. I really like having you as a friend. You are always so much fun. Although we hardly hang out, it seems like you are always there for me when i need you. Just calm down a little and get a hold on your life, you are such a good person, i know you deserve more than a shitty life.
3. I'm so proud of you, I really am. You are handling everything so well, better than i ever did. Even if i can't stand you at times, you still are my best friend in the entire world. I love you.
4. Who are you? You constantly change. You were the worst/best thing that has ever happened to me.
5. You are the only person that keeps me going day to day. You always encourage me to do the things i dream of doing, and you always believe in me no matter what. At the end of the day, i know i can always talk to you and you will always listen and be there. I'm so lucky that i have you in my life.
6. And you wonder where she gets it from...?
7. I am so happy i finally found someone i can really relate to. I always have so much fun when im with you. But sometimes i really dont know what goes on in your head. I wish i could guide you in the right direction and make you stronger, but you are going to have to do that yourself. You are such a great person, and deserve so much better. I wish you could just see that.
8. You need to stop judging me.
9. As i get to know you more and more, i see what an awesome person you are. I dont care what anyone says about you, because you are just so sweet and make everyone so happy.
10. Why don't you go jump off of a bridge!
11. Once you stop being so fucking weird, i think that things will work out for you. You are a generally nice person, but if you keep acting so creepy nothing will work out for you. creep.

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[15 Nov 2007|10:03pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

The past two weeks have been non-stop for me.
School, work, stress.
I worked 30 hours last week, this week 32 hours.
On top of going to school.
And I'm still broke.
It's so stressful. Thank god this is last week I'll be working crazy hours. And I'm not doing that great in Bio, and my professor knows it. With my procrastinating and work it just is not good. I'm just not working up to my full potential and I need to try harder.

Thank god I have nothing to do tomorrow, it's my one day off.

It seems like I'm missing out on all of Fall, and it's my favorite time of year. The only time I can really enjoy it is on my way to school. 25A is lined with trees with such pretty colors. At one point the trees cover the road with bright yellow leaves and when the sun shines through it's the most beautiful thing ever. That's the one part of the day I do enjoy, although I'm beginning to HATE driving. Which I thought would never ever happen.

The only things keeping me going right now is Dorian, Amanda and Jen. That's it.
The only thing I look forward to each day is seeing Dorian. He's so good to me, he's always there for me...even on his birthday he is completely there for me and makes me feel better.

Hopefully tattoos this weekend....once i get it figured out.
and Corinne's engagement party(?)

OH and BTW!
Jenna and I are in the process of planning a Masquerade Ball New Years Eve party. It's going to be awesome.


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[05 Nov 2007|08:06am]
[ mood | cold ]

why are stores setting up christmas decorations?
its not even thanksgiving yet!

I hate this country...

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summer is almost over :( [10 Aug 2007|10:54pm]
[ mood | cold ]

you know summers over when they advertise for "back to school" clothes.


The road trip was fucking amazing. as amanda says, nothing we say to describe it will do it justice.

which brings me to my next topic...

dorian and i (and my family) are moving to California in four years. My dad, jenna and my mom are going to live in San Diego and Dorian and i will live in San Francisco. I'm counting down the days.

AND, I GOT A NEW JOB! FUCK YOU and GOODBYE starbucks! im so nervous and excited.

thats all for now


P.S... amanda update your fucking journal!

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this is probably going to be the best summer i've ever had. [28 Jun 2007|04:50pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]

The past week has been amazing. I've worked a lot and it's so hot, but it's still so good. I've been spending a lot of time with Dorian...probably making up for lost time. Every second with him is amazing though and I'm so in love with him. Yes sometimes it's still rough but it doesn't matter because we were meant to be together in the end.

So yeah, work work work. I need the money though so as much as it sucks i don't mind. So in the past week i--went to the shelter (Tommy and Zeph are amazing), went out with Ash and Jenna, celebrated amanda's bday, graduated, slept over dorians almost every night, went to the beach, and it's been so good.

This road trip is just what i need right now. i need to get away from this island, and i need to get away from working. Ms Coven was talking to me last night though, and made really good and scary points that i didnt bother thinking of. We are going through a lot of desserts which are scolding hot during the day and at night go below zero. She's going to pack a little "emergency kit" for us though just in case. AND we might be going to Mexico for a day with my dad. AND we are going to see THE SMASHING PUMPKINS in san fran. I'm so excited.

So yeah, anyway, garage sale/car wash on saturday.
Hope the turnout is good.
We need to raise about 6-800 dollars for gas!

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[22 Jun 2007|01:40pm]
[ mood | rushed ]

Well im officially out of High School. It's a very weird feeling. Of course it rain on graduation so everyone had to pack into the extremely small gym. Thank god dorian and jenna got into see me graduate. Everything went by so fast. When i have more time ill update more about my "inner feelings and thoughts". but for now i have to say... i can't wait for college.


okay work in less then an hour.


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[06 Jun 2007|06:24am]
wow. three days of high school left.
its so scary.
i cant believe its really over.

so many tests and essays to write.
my fucking hand hurts.
and i have nooo money!

okay its 7:23 and i have to be at school in twenty minutes. which isnt gonna happen cuz i just got out of the shower and now i writing in this thing. OH WELL! im only missing gym, and gym doesnt matter in life.

i love my friends, i love my family and i love my life <3
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46 days [22 May 2007|01:25pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

I am counting down the days to our fabulous road trip!

Zephie and kitties Wednesday<3333
Senior Cut Day and car wash thursday
right now i have to go work at "hellwood" for the whole night. HATE IT!


In this room I'm sitting by your side.
'Cause it rains for hours and the phone is off its hook.
Standing on the edge,
casting lots to set me up before you knock me down,
off the summer's edge and drown me.
We're betting on our own lives, making up for all time we lost.
In this house of cards we're all holding hearts and spades
one breath, one step could knock it all down.
but you lead with your eyes and you give it away
decide, design to cut from the clouds.
When the people you love get lost in the shuffle,
when you leave, you leave nothing but broken hearts
You let it go and then you fold.

So we stay on the open road.
We drive for hours and still no end in sight at all.
Driving in your car, miss the stop sign, fall in love, just to get knocked out

Off the summer's edge and drown me
We're betting on our own lives, making up for all time we lost.
In this house of cards we're all holding hearts and spades
one breath, one step could knock it all down.
but you lead with your eyes and you give it away
decide, design to cut from the clouds.
When the people you love get lost in the shuffle,
when you leave, you leave nothing but broken hearts.

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i started something i couldn't finish... [13 May 2007|12:46pm]
[ mood | blah ]

I really really hate not having a car.
It makes my life so much more difficult.
And i have no money.
I'm so stressed out right now.
I really need to get money,
whether its through a car wash, house cleaning...
lemonade stand?
idk, anything.
things are so weird right now.
okay so now i need to shower and spend the
day with mi madre.

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